Hello you

Posting, dreaming.

You are free to go and be the light.

You are not danmed by my sight

You area creator of divine might

You have in you the power to make people be together

Take Flight, burn down false flags

You won't go down without a fight

you are protected by divine dimensions

You have been chosen

You are the best soul I have ever met.

My angel.

Building somebody else's home

today i went to meet with the Tchechs for lunch and them I went frankie to see his house in construction. It is turning out to be phenomenal. He is building with his own project, using old wood from train tracks and other woods and metals from demolitions.  The home features many natural giant rocks that he is building around and such, and it is right on the bay. It will feature an all glass front, 1200 usable square feet of living space but another 1200 hundred of decks and varandas all made of wood, and many other goodies. 

We carried today large 150-200 quilo  chucks of wood on our shoulders.... and a funny happened. I was carrying one giant train track on my shoulders, walking backwards going up stairs, and the dog, a wolf like blue eyed siberian husky bit my ass! seriously........ and I just kept walking. Bastard russian dog. I am tired and my ass is fine. 

It was the dream home I wanted 10 years ago, in fact on the exact same lot. His deceased father bought it 10 years ago or so for 1 thousand dollars and today, there are some for sale for only 200 thousand...... well, I guess it is now only in dream land at this point for me, unless laws change and the lots that are cheaper somehow become legal to build on. at the moment it is impossible. 

Tomorrow, we will burn some scrap wood, clean up construction rubble, start working on the deck and then drink some wine with our host Pablo, the English teacher neighbor. 

Leo

why I write

Writing is one of the very few activities that makes me feel smart. So that is why I write when the tone is of disgust with the world. When it is emotion and feelings of loneliness or missing women, I am writing from my heart. 

Jumbo Maggots

Mogul maggots are dangerous creatures

eating the flesh from out reptilian brains

dare you say anything more about them

rottening family members, just like us.

Since all is a fabrication of the media mogul maggots 

Since the alleged hollocaust or the alledged brazilian landing of Cabral

what is the truth about us ordinary maggots?

The truth is that love is in the bank since America is America my friends.

Love is green, produced by purple heart generals.

Listening to a friend

I complain a lot, I assume that. It feels like all my sadness comes from not having things and situations that I want. Emotional, financial and physical safety at the levels that I want for myself, which to most, is at a pretty hefty level. 

A friend was just complaining yesterday to me, about the fact that he can't be alone for 2 hours at home without freaking out. He is one of the best paraglider pilots in the world, has a beautiful son, MANY gorgeous women plus a girlfriend, makes 10 thousand USD a month at least, owns homes, drives a nice truck, has a sense of humor, a college education, a serious worldwide successful business, notoriety.  Yet he can't sleep at night, must have a woman to sleep with  and worries galore about everything, feels lonely, defeated when makes emotional mistakes and thinks too much.   

I don't understand this world.  my dream is just to have one nice girl that I can grow my life with, play, work, and love, so I am not alone.

Leo

Mega List

I want a girl that goes surfing with me

I want a girl that has a body so hot I salivate

I want a girl that wants to build a home with me brick by brick

I want a girl that will get me over the hump, so I can smile again

I want a girl that laughs and hugs my friends

I want honesty and authenticity over posing insecurity. 

The recent weeks

The days have been hard and painful because I feel lonely, needy for affection, friendship, love adn sex.  Like every guy I have ever met in my life from the human race, I am looking for a really beautiful girl to be with that happens to just like to be next to me and comes surfing, meeting friends and other cool activities. 

With so many pretty girls all over town, me driving a fancy car and having a nice face I find myself alone because I have become a very shy person, someone I have always been inside. THe difference is that I don't put myself into familiar territory (with ugly girls). I have been looking for a girl, but she won't come until I am ready to actually approach one.  My buddy frank has at least 4 or 5 gorgeous girls right now and I envy him.

I hope that I find someone special to me because it will feel wonderful again to be alive. I want someone with an ass so nice that the ass itself it viagra for another 75 years.

yeah. ViagrAss I hope I get to try it one day.

All i want is to be in love again

Saudades 2

To com saudade de voce

meu amor meu prazer

tenho vontade de estar perto

do seu coracao 

de seus de bracos abertos

Tenho uma vontade louca 

de estar na sua cama

deleitando-me com seu suco, sua vida, 

e suas lembrancas

Meu olhso enchem de lagrimas, 

quando penso em voce

Morro de saudade

Tenho vontade de morrer sem voce

Minha vida nao eh a mesma sem voce

Sem a vibracao do seu coracao 

a minha vida eh uma ilusao

Eita carinho que tenho, 

pra te dar todo dia

Minha vida minha luz, 

meu suor minha alegria

Ai que saudade do seu amor

Energia

toda materia eh energia condensada  vibrando vagarosamente e todos nos somos a consciencia unica experienciando ela mesma subjetivamente.  Nao ha morte, a vida eh apenas um sonho e somos a imaginacao de nos mesmos.

truth

pain

hurt

sad

tears

anquish

cry

memories

distractions

lost

death

suicide

pain

stupidity

toughtless

softness

shame

disgust

hate

anger

truth

mine

jobless

lost

blasphemous

irresponsible

lonely

suicidal

useless

weak.

past interests

Savants, aesthetes, Yogis, Squirting orgasms, Spiritual Atheism, Kombucha, biographies, Jaguar SS100's and Lincoln Continental 62's and Chrysler C300 1956, Basketball Greatness, Beautifully shaped bodies, the end of racism, George Carlin, Music by Ben Harper and Melissa Larkin, Lucid Dreaming, Love in Actions, Sustainable Monogamy, The Amazon Forest Preservation, Sidecar Motorcycles, Carbon Credits, Social Entrepreneurship in developing countries, Alternative Education, Cooking as Therapy, The Perfect French Toast, Family Guy, Taking People Paragliding, Massage Therapy, Escalating Commitments, Child Adoption, Rape of Status Quo, Africa's Freedom Fighters, Effective non-invasive communication, Doubt, Alternative Architecture, Computer Art, Grumman Albatrosses and all flying seaplanes, large groups workers of night entertainment venues, Carbon imprint control, Live Music that my friends play, The Fashion Industry, Spoken Word, Diaries, Rigorous Honesty, Crying when I feel like it, the amazing lie(or is it the amazing truth) of the world....amongst other things. "I am supposed to do and like many things; insects are the ones supposed to be specialists."

Please kill me

that's it.

Way of the Superior Man

This is the whole book by David Deida, called Way of the Superior Man, recommended to anyone male or female. In some chapters it explains why I failed in you (and I am learning).

Download it here:

wayofthesuperiorman.pdf

thoughts at 8:48PM

1) about to meet ex wife for the second time in 4 years, will try to listen patiently since I can barely deal with myself

2) thinking that death might be the only way out of this and wishing I could just end it all.

3) I am so confused and unhappy today.  I don't know why I am so lost. The books are not helping and friends seem so distant from my reality, I am alone again.

Books I am reading today

Raising Children Compassionately by Marshall Rosenberg
Way of the Superior Man by David Deida

Find God through Sex by David Deida

Crazy

So,  I just heard a bunch of stories of my friend's sexual escapades, on the day of his birthday where he got laid by I really hot lady that I happened to see pictures of her knockers.  

Since his girlfriend is going to be 6 months away from him, he is just going to cheat on her.  He tried to break up, he really did, but she cried her balls out, that he just could not do it.  Her fear of being alone, at 22 years old, was emotion he rather not deal with or did not know how to say no too. 

What is funny is that he is cheating on her with all these girls, and he calls them all "crazy". What does that mean?   It just means that he is not willing or does not have the emotional experience to deal with a person's repressed emotions and sexual taboos.  he says: "It would take 10 years to deal with the emotional stuff of each pussy I get"

So here is a quick story, from one of his escapades: he gets into some girl's pants, she is riding him ncie and easy....but suddenly...she is crying on top of him...... saying between tears " I am not sure about this" repeating the same process of riding him and them crying 5 times! 

Think about it: here is a guy that just wants to get laid and so does she, but she is ashamed of it because of 25+ years of sexual repression by family, friends, males, churches and other bullshit.  Her moral standards are clearly  tending to the liberal side, but she is afraid to just have enjoy the pleasures of her own body.

So now, he is stuck with his girlfriend that wants to be lied to and pretend he is faithful, not knowing that his girl is also a crazy jealous society repressed woman. He is just familiar with this crazy one.  So, there is a tale of a guy that just cannot tell the truth.

Think about this now: I, his friend, is thinking of all these things while he is telling me about his sex-capade just wanting to get a laugh out of it and have some fun. 

He is still a great guy by the way and he deserves a happy birthday. I am just a fun friend..... oh no wait, I am lying to myself too.

does anyone love me

Can anyone out there just love somebody if they are not geniuses, siblings, heroes, or some other special something? Tell me why are you so fuckn special.

lucky bastard

it is fascinating. 

I have free eggs, bread, power, fancy car, a fancy roof, perfect temperatura, clean clothes, and I still don't give a shit. I need to tell that to my parents. I wish I knew why. 

Flower Sucker

I am like a ButterFly

I just land on flowers and I eat its nectar

Flowers are just amazing givers

I am so proud of them for being such

It feels like I am supposed to be the sucker of a flower's life

I am so proud of myself for being just a sucker.

There ya go

I am a sucker.

I suck the life out of flowers

that is the job of my life

to just land on flowers, such its juice and move on

Wow, amazing flower sucker. 

Parental Emotions

I have some serious rivers in my brain

carved out of years of emotions that rained over the years.

When will I not react to my parents existing, being nice and trying to connect?

Note to self.....get NVC parents on next encarnation.

how much more

How much more can the common man be manipulated?

Amar você

Amar você é amar o mundo

Sentir a dor do seu prazer 

é meu prazer ajudar você

Você tem alma pequena

jovem, e difícil demais

Você vê apenas com o olhos

da solidão, da separação

Você é o fim do mundo

cada vez mais perto,

cada vez mais profundo

Você é vivo como o rio limpo

da alma limpa

é o meu prazer

você, você.

A Burrice do Céu

Obviamente, no céu todos são inocentes,

Pois se fossem realmente conscientes e inteligentes

os seres celestes não conseguiriam viver no céu,

 sabendo que no inferno pessoas estão vivas e sofrendo.

A verdade do amadurecimento da alma, todas puras por natureza 

é aprender a aceitar que todos são iguais.

O céu e o inferno é eterno nas nossas mentes, simples projeção da devagar vibração dos nossos Cromossomos X e Y, no nosso masculino e no nosso feminino.

Portanto para o céiu existir, temos que ser ignorantes da dor do inferno,

O que é injustiça maldade, ganância pseudo divina.

Burrice de Cromossomo Y.

GL

Gutenberg and Luther had a lot in common.

next goal in travel

My next goal with travelign is to transform my disgust of poverty into appreciation for development.

New Feelings

I realized yesterday that I do not connect physical sensation with my everyday experiences and emotions in life. It means 2 things to me so far:

1) all the sensations of everday life are usually overwhelmed by body pain

2) everthing i do is done not because of the sensations I  have, but for the feeling of reaching the goal. So if I ride a motorcycle I do not do it because it feels good, but ecause i am seeking to reach a high speed so I can tell the story of reaching that speed to myself.

movies

Movie theaters have become the modern day chapels, where the masses can worship their holywood idols. 

Purseonality

A little story of your mamma and all other women out there with a personality that is so compact it fits on a purse purchased at wal-mart. 

Not compact in a small and fragile kind of way like an egg with a hard shell with so much nourishment, but like one of those  suitcase nukes, packed with powerful witts and multitasking killing forces, but lost out there in the hands of terrorists, her children.

Mothers are such amazing creatures, because usually (or used too anyways) they give up creating thinking careers to procreate right? They say: woooot thinking for what????  I am too busy wiping my little puppie's behinds right now.

Mother's would be great....... if it wasn't for those the love and hate them most, their children. 

Oh Mother, I am telling ya that it is hard to love ya, easy to hate ya, but surely enough, I will miss ya. 

A picture of my chest

Time

What time is it? Friday...

how it feels for the past 24 hours

I feel like I am on a nitemare that never ends and I can't wake up.

I will miss you

I want to say that i have to go away. I am tired, and I need change. I am very very very sad to do this, it feels like you died, it hurts so much. you are by far the person that i care for the most in this world. Peace to you.

Morning Life

Everyday before I wke up, I htink to myself that I should do some yoga and pilates because I have back pain.  Because I never get to do it because I don;t know how to get my mind to focus on doing that ( I don't really like it I guess), so I start to tell myself I already failed in something and I am not good enough. So literally, before I open my eyes, I am already putting myself down, feeling ashamed, disappointed and sad. 

So it is easy to come to the conclusion that it is very difficult to have a productive and creative day, and even compassion to anything,  if that is how a day is started. 

Hugs to me. 

Imagine

• Imagine what is was to shake a white man's hand, and you were a slave.
  
• Imagine you were gay and your father was a Christian Minister.
  
• Imagine being 18 and shootinh Koreans on the war.
  
• Imagine being on a concentration camp about to be experimented on your brain alive.
  
• Imagine being homeless in winter.
  
• Imagine going to jail for 27 years for the cause you love.
  
• Imagine being castrated alive because you were black.
  
• Can you see the beauty of all those moments?
  

Love

I love you so much it feels like a dose of instant enlightenment. Love me back silly, don't waste this.

Find God through sex

 Sex can be used as a powerful toool to achieve nirvana and to get to learn how to balance your masculine and feminine energies.  The reason why you think sex is not something that could be enjoyed daily or that somehow should be restricted is that you don't enjoy sex enough. Because of that, you are not willing to explore the immense possibilities of sexuality.

The reality of your sex life could change so radically that every time you have sex you could see it as a communion with God.  I can promise you that if you are willing, you orgasms and samadhi will be same thing.  

I had this dream with you.....

Why

1. Your voice soothes my soul.
   
2. The smell of your body puts tears of joy in my eyes.
3. The sound of your name is joyful to my ears.
4. A vision of you in your yoga pants feels like love.
5. The feelings of picking you up and carrying you around is happy times.
6. Kissing you feels good.
7. Nothing compares to the feeling of having a muse to photograph.
8. The feeling of giving you a hug is pure joy to me.
9. the possibilities of enlightenment and fun drive me
10. When you say I love You, I spiral into infinity.

It is redemption from a long road of experiences, it is the opportunity that makes a story to exciting to be true. 

I believe in this love because it is a true feeling to me. I long to be in love, to have someone in love with me. I want ot feel like in the morning the daylight is enough. I long for the day I feel so safe, that my ability to create is 10 to the 20, or a 100 billion billions better.

Again, what you do in your road of life is always exciting to me. So, I am very happy to observe. 

What my needs are:

1. A partner that is willing to explore the limitless opportunities for enlightenment that sexuality brings.
   
2. A feeling that I am accepted everyday, as I am.

 

Vitamin D

Today's rant is to make sure I get rid of the doll mentality in my head, te mentality that one day I thought was actually good. I want to basically declare how pathetic are people like Victoria Beckham. I like it free and I like it healthy, so Vitamin D via the Sun is the real make-up from the Gods. Ok, maybe some nice oil for those intimate moments, but that's it.....  

Love is Collective

I am here to help you re-write the story of your life in a few short paragraphs.

I am here first, to tell you that all your life, you have been thought that the natural energies you have within you serve only for the purpose to fight another energies out there. Tit for Tat is the mantra in today's head, since the rise of dictators in Egypt and India and such.

So, the same goes for families, gangs, countries, and our own personal judges in our heads.

But we are love and Love is only love when it is an act of compassion and kindness. We then by default, love when we take Collaboration as a new tale of existence, because this is how we as people, instinctively, show our personal wealth.

Collective action is the way of our hearts and the way of the future.

Wasted

I don't know if I will live in a mansion or in an igloo.
I know i love you.
A feeling, a mystery, not an statistic of metaphysics
Love is now, and it is for you.

Since you can't give it to me, 

I can't wait for you to go away,

So i get to waste my feelings starting all over again.

Vida Fácil/Easy Life

There are 4 ways to display wealth: beauty, compassion, money and intelect. Brazilian Culture is so fixated in easy physical beauty today because it is the easiest and most convenient way to display wealth. Money and intelect are so hard to achieve that what is left, compassion, has always being ostracized as a problem of the government. So here we are in what is left of Brazil as it is being taught to children via TV: a land where compassion is a "problem" for the government to resolve, intelect is an area reserved to mega corporations to exploit and wealth is inherited or married into.   Welcome to the land of plastic surgery.

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Existem 4 maneiras de mostrar riqueza neste mundo: beleza, compaixão, dinheiro e intelectualidade. A Cultura Brasileira hoje é obsecada com a beleza externa fácil, pois esta é a forma mais fácil de mostrar riqueza. Vide o maior número de cirurgias plásticas estéticas no mundo. Dinheiro e conhecimento intelectual são objetivos difíceis de atingir por motivos óbvios. Portanto veja o que é o Brasil hoje, e o que é ensinado para crianças através da TV e de outros métodos duvidosos como gangues e igrejas: uma terras onde pessoas aprendem que compaixão é problema do governo para resolver, e onde o desenvolvimento intelectual é coisa de rico ou coisa de corporações internacionais "progressistas".  E onde a riqueza é ate hojoe herdada ou "casada".

Bem vindo a terra da cirurgia plástica.

Se pondo

O Sol se pondo é o imagem mais de alta definição que eu ja ví.

Belas do Brasil

Ela é Bonita, 

Mas é Brasileira.

Mulherada Inútil e Bela.

Vazias como boca sem dentes, 

não sabem mastigar os detalhes da vida.

Eita mulherada burra.

A inteligência tá na bunda neste Brasil, grandioso só nas nádegas que vejo.

É uma pena...ela é bonita.

Mas este é o Brasil com bunda de silicone,

Bela tristeza, Bela Triste.

Uma bundaligência danada elas,

O único botão que conhece é um calçado de inverno (de 25 graus).

Pobreza interna, sombra nos olhos

e sombra na mente lavada com sabão de tabus falsos, 

o sabão do moralismo de Igreja futebol clube.

Não me leve a mal.

Mas sem sombras nem dúvidas

a maioria da mulher brasileira hoje, 

é apenas uma fantasia de carnaval.

Tenha vergonhas de vocês mesmas, 

produtos dos seus medos tudo bem, 

mas produtos dos seus homens

que morrem de ciúme de não sei o que, pra que?

Um horror de carnaval esta sua bunda 

deliriosa mental que você chama de cérebro.

É hora de bater o pé mulé, 

na imunda bunda da sua melhor amiga, o seu marido.

seu bumbum merece ser mais, minhas queridas.

Seu bumbum deve ser mais que uma consumidora 

de apetrechos de decoração pessoal.

Portanto,

Não me leve a mal,

pois seu hábito é real, 

e portanto devo escrever mais coisas horrorosas sobre vocês.

Me explica mulherada, de onde vem tanta burrice, senão dos homens que querem agradar.

É a falsa riqueza, que se mostra nas fotos do orkut,

Que coisa orkutorosa!

Agora eu sei onde que a expressão puta que pariu nasceu,

Nasceu no anus de 1955, o dia da consagração do marketing como melhor amigo numero um,

na Rua da Luz Vermelha Congressional de Brasília.

Criados não na mente de grandes Brasileiros, 

mas na seborreia de antas de ternos como Juscelino e Jânio.

Minhas queridas e atuais protótipos falsos de Carmen Miranda,

Vocês tem alma,

Já são lindas por dentro, vocês já são um avião.

É só tirar o pé do chão mulé!

E aprender a usar as suas próprias asas,

a beleza da sua própria imaginação.

Um beijo coletivo e real a todas vocês, belas do Brasil.

Muá! Beijo do Magro!

today

i hurt

i miss

i sad

i cry 

i  feel every single note chopin wanted me to hear on the Nocturne.

Thinking this morning

After watching a few movies and thinking about a plan of my own, to program my mind faster, I surrendered to an idea I heard from mathiew Ricard: That the mind is not given enough attention and we need to train it like a muscle.  It is hard, but it was also hard to train all other habits like anger.

So, I want to try to wake up and read he Tao Te Ching in the morning, thank God for the amazign opportunities and love of this world, and then medidate on compassion and self-empathy.  

I hope that a 30 minute morning session of this everyday will do wonders.

Humorosos dias

Quando adolescente as mitocondrias, streptococus, ácido desoxiribonucleico, mas nada como a perereca real da amazônia  para aprendermos o que é a vida adulta.

I need to build my own house

For what is real is my life now is the need for a safe haven, a home close to home where I can have my life at home.   So therefore my next goal in life is to build a home.

Misbehaviored

I just realized that there is a reason why it "seems" like I am a rebel and I am constantly trying to push away those trying to give me advice or trying to give me an oppinion. The reason is that I I constantly do that with own thoughts.   I don't even negotiate with them. Every thought I have, I  disagree with it, almost immediately. Because of such behavior that is engrained in my head,  my decision making perhaps take s a it longer than expected, after I attached a few judgments to every thought I have.   

So in the real world and dealing with people in it, that is how Ihome a cross.  As long as i am rebeling against myself, I will not be about to be a "true" rebel. 

XIII Ta0 Te Ching

Pride and shame causes us much fearful anxiety.

But our inner peace and distress should be our primary concerns.

Why do pride and shame cause us so much fearful anxiety?

Because:

Pride attaches undue importance to the superiority of one's status in the eyes of others.

And shame is fear of humiliation at one's inferior status in the estimation of others.

When one sets his heart highly esteemed, and achieves such rating, then he is automatically involved in fear of losing his status.

Then protetion of his status appears to be his most important need. And humiliation seems the worst of all evils.

This is the reason why pride and shame cause us so much fearful anxiety.

Why should our inner peace and distress be our primary concern?

Because:

The inner self is our true self; so in order to realize our true self, we must be willing to live without being dependent upon the opinions of others. When we are completely self-sufficient, then we can have no fear of disesteem.

He who wisely devotes himself to being self-sufficient, and therefore does not depend for his happiness upon rating by others, is the one bestable to set an example for, and to teach and govern, others.

I Remember

I remember meeting her. The beauty gave me archaeopteryxes on my stomach and my neocortex was just not working anymore. My reptile brain wanted to mate her immediately, but somehow the extreme beauty of her eyes and skin made me vulnerable: I wanted to give, to open my heart to her. I wanted to be with her so i could appreciate that beauty everyday and tell her that behind that body was a man in love with life and its beauty.

Only I know what that feels like and it was exhilarating to see her that night.   I was so nervous I could not get it up. I was truly afraid and I wanted her to tell me I was safe so I could give her my love. Her red panties and bra, matched against her dark skin and blue eyes  made all those butterflies, bees, hummingbirds, passarines and archaeopteryxes  in my stomach fly around. I was shocked, and I wanted to express how much in love I was with that beauty.

So what, as far as she does in her life. I am in this life to love only by observing.  She makes choices that makes her feel good and we hope to share those choices sometimes and enjoy each other's company.

I think I have exactly what I always wanted in my life. My general need to experience real love and beauty will eventually give me that. As much as it hurts to get there, I will get there.

Reality

If I feel this stupid why God made me this way? if I feel this stupid, why do I have these illusions in my Head. Wouldn't it be easier just to make me a carpenter or a jew in a concentration camp?Wouldn't I feel more beautiful and smarter that way?  It is easy to say to myself that I am nothing but matter vibrating imagining myself, but the reality is that I feel sad.

Hope

I hope I realize my dreams of love.  When I hear a love song that I like, my entire body goes numb in a feeling similar to an orgasm.  The combination of sounds and my feelings are like a hose spraying love water on my soul. 

26 things

Here is a list of 26 things I am already doing in my mind:

1) Learning how to paint and draw

2) Learning how to sing nicely and play drums

3) Having a threesome marriage and writing a book about it called The Madrid Rollercoaster

4) Flying 200 Miles on a paraglider

5) Being an NVC teacher

6) Building my own home on the ocean in Vila Velha

7) Build a home on trees with unobstruted views, in Europe or Hawaii.

7) Having a seaplane to go play and work

8) Building a community of awesome green endeavors in EarthGivers

9) Skateboarding at 80 km/h downhill

10) Surfing the world

11) Kiting well, jumping, cruising, 

12) Paramotoring across countries

13) Taking care of my body everyday by smiling and by having good posture

14) Photographing beauty of people, amateurly.

15) Having a Red Bull Sponsorship

16) Going to Burning Man many times

17) Making amazing costumes like in the movies

18) Learning a martial art and be good at it.

19) Sitting on a truck, with 2 surfboards and my 5 year old kid.

20) Meditating in high places, balancing, budhist style.

21) Making my own almond milk

22) Cooking for large groups of people

23) Memorizing some, feeling and applying the Tao Te Ching in my life

24) Co-owning a green sustainable brand that supports the dreams above

25) Tantric experiences

26) Having many real friends all over the world, for the rest of my life.

A mais bela só para mim

Hoje acordei querendo uma mulher bela para mim.

Sou um aesteta enrustido, 

pois falo que beleza não me importa.

Mas confesso aqui e agora, 

que aquele olhar de arredores que as belas tem,

tira do meu peito a ilusão que sou feio.

Que bom que posso finalmente assumir,

 a realidade de mim.

Eu ja tenho toda a beleza do mundo.

Eu sei que ela é um tanto indigna,

eu sei que ela é injustamente sempre descrita,

como linda ou feia ou comestivel.

Mas essa é a realidade dos belos ignorantes

Eu sou um belo que sabe descrever

seus sentimentos, desigualdades e necessidades.

Eu sou um belo de conceitos sanos, não violentos.

Eu sou um belo de ângulos abertos

Eu sou um belo liberal.

Red Bull Shit?

Red Bull is an entertainment corporation, far larger and far creative than anything the world has ever seen. Red Bull the corporation is Cirque du Soleil on Red Bull and Vodka, without the artsy fartsy costumes. It gives athletes all over the world the opportunity to practice and display themselves and their passion, without worrying much about their survival. Talented people just get to play hard and show off their red bull-ness, entertaining the masses.

it is Formula 1, Football, Rally racing, air races, paragliding, Snowboarding, robot fighting, remote control airplanes, video game tournaments, tango and breakdancing.....seriously folks, they are just everywhere.

Red Bull has about 4.5 billion dollar yearly revenue.
Red Bull earned about 1 billion dollars net
Red Bull spends roughly 1 billion dollars in marketing. They market and distribute the performance of their own athletes and sports teams.

How cool is that?

So, their product, sugar water with natural aminoacids, caffeine and conservants, is perhaps not as healthy as Orange Juice with spirulina. But its good far out performs its bad. The claims for it increasing heart attacks? Red Bullshit! Red Bull releases adrenaline and other hormones all over the world in huge quantities, reducing stress with each WOW it produces.

Leo

On fire

my home, my heart is on fire
lightning stroke and passion ran away with my soul
I wake up for a good life
with my star on a dark night
I sworn secrecy, I expected raging love back
I got a sharp knife on my chest

1000 miles away, I write you a million words a minute
essay after essay of our long baths together
you in every molecule of water surrounding me
it is a good life, it is a good dream

Don't awake,
don't be scared of the cold that the water brings
My work here is done.
I am a lover for the ages,
I interact by observing
what more do we deserve from the Gods
I am on Fire

Drowning Soldier of Love

This song is for you baby.

Party Molecular,
Port Bar, the front door open
Mojitos, limes, salt, Memories never made
The Candles shine and create shade

I feel good and I wish we stop the charade
loser face i love you god damn it
you are so good

1-2-3 youth power,
bubble bath
I know you better than anyone
Oh yeah, you are ill;
that is what I feel, when you breathe the lies of yours

You are not liking me my trophy dream
Beatnik nuts, lots of sorry's and but's
talking about your soul all night
fresh of the oven thoughts
pancakes with peaches and ketchup
random stuff

It feel so nice, to have my warmth on your belly
I remember you wonderful
Just.......crazy fun all night long,
desperate maze of amazing crazy love

You know that I love to watch the day go by with you
Visit me from your soul dream
Every single one of them is hot,
feels like forever and never
between her ties, a thing of beauty
faith, Love, wisdom,
banana pancakes in the morning again


it feels good to be your comrade
in the game of looks, I love your face
I am faithful you will cover for me
with your EYES lost in the horizon
watching for that sniper riffle of your lips on my......
oh my.....

oh yeah....... you are easy baby
like the falling rain

fallin........ fallin..... in love....

Remember

She does not like the music you like
She not not like the food you like
She does not care about the words you say
She does not listen to me with her heart
She cannot make love to me
She cannot let me drive
She cannot believe in my life
She cannot dance and have fun with me
She cannot let chance create fun experiences
She cannot smile at my jokes
She cannot even enjoy some simple peanuts

She cannot dream further than cinderella land
She cannot love anything I do.
But, she can be my muse in the dunes
She can be a beautiful brat
She can be pretty in a dress
She can play music beautifully too

She can melt me with her smell
She can give me love with just one touch
She is the only one reading these lines
She is the one I wait for everyday
She is the one flower I love
She is the one that flew away.

Peanut tunnel

My soul left my body
and I traveled in a tunnel in space that was covered in peanuts!
I made love today, and as usual,
you where there at the end of the tunnel
with your arms crossed and your feet stomping in disapproval.

It's not easy when my heart speaks
louder than my mouth is willing to carry on with
I guess we just have different dreams,
I guess you are just afraid of adventures
or to careful to care for me.

My constant chatter about
the love of my life in you
is still on people's minds
Even my mother recognizes
that you are where my wind blows.
I want surrender.

The Circus

More than a birthday card
More than Christmas cherries
More than words of love
appreciate what is put into things

That phone book of a 1000 pages
that sometimes is the target of a teenager's rage
That door that sometimes is slammed in anger
on the face of the woman that nurtured you
or that man that paid your bills for so long

More than all of it,
Gotta love the effort
Gotta love that air that you breathe
Gotta love those the rig the circus that you live in

Saudade

I feel the sorrow of missing you
this is my reality
I want your love everyday of my life
I can already picture it

And I discover that I love someone else
Can you take the chance to share my love
I don't think you know
how much fun life is
when you share your soul


I will never forget you anyways
Pure and simple my feelings are
like a photograph of my reality
that is all I do in this world, I feel.

I am born to feel you.

Tristeza

The sadness feels good,
like a sun shining on my face.
I pray for it to nurture
another flower in my heart,
so when the sunset comes,
I can sail yet again in love with the movements of our souls.

Like wild horses in the prairies,
painting paths on the grass
I want to paint my life freely,
with you on my pack.

like a troop of monkeys in the wild,
watercolor sensations of these quasi-human beings
brings me back home.
Love is a simple instinct
The mind counting minutes isn't
and that makes me sad a bit.

Oh I love you, come back to me,
so I can photograph your evolution,
a monkey registering the growth
of another monkey,
from ape to soul in 20 years due time.

Your beauty

What a privilege
to have shared your beauty
You, so quiet in your eyes
so loud in your heart
I remember your hum

I dream of the day
I registered you play on those dunes
the best day of my life

I felt like you were the one
watching your skin reflect the shine
of the sands
You are so beautiful

The Hurricane

Seismic tensions
tearing us apart
Rumbles of my imagination
or the inconsolable reality of us?

You are my home in a hurricane darling
calmness only in the eye of the storm
Calm those winds down honey
So my foundations are strong

Memories of your arms
You my sister, my girlfriend,
My biggest fear and traitor?
Replenish me, Hurricane,
with some action packed good times

Bring us together
rough around the edges
build of a real life
together